Alive in Love is a compilation of three journal entries from different moments in my lifetime when I have experienced immense heartbreak due to experiencing immense love. These narratives explore my understanding of love over the years, how it factors into both my work as a PhD student and into my overall positionality on love as a queer woman of colour, bringing into question the notion of love as ontological—as a singular, all-consuming reality. The piece questions whether the nature of my love - the way I experience and understand love from my subjugated standpoint, is graspable through the structure of colonial language, or any language, for that matter. Each entry formulates love within and outside the western categorical understandings of love as either romantic, platonic, or affectionate as simple, raw, unrefined expressions of the different forms of love that exist and the heartbreak that follows.