This work of creative non-fiction makes use of auto-theory and personal journaling to unpack my experience of living with idiopathic hypersomnia in a hyperproductive capitalist context. My discussions are undergirded by my frustration that I must depend upon the medicalization of my body and products ofcapitalist pharmaceutical corporations to function. I centre my experiences around my reality as a graduatestudent. Success in academia requires a gross output of ideas beyond the grasp of many folx who live with various chronic conditions. Using affect theory, queer crip studies, queer phenomenology, and temporality, I meander through the ever-present burden of existing in a tired body with the yearning to change (destroy)a system that already makes us all feel far too tired.