Through this email exchange, we have tried to engage with ourselves by considering our bodies as archives of trauma, feelings, and ideas, using the thematic of the nighttime and nightness. Nightness emerges as a counter epistemology in our rumination and it transfigures the dualisms of day and night, productive and unproductive as merging in space and time. By writing ourselves as bodies of the night, such that we belong both to the day and to the night, or perhaps neither to the day nor to the night, we use the night and nightness to process our grief; to feel grief and to escape away from it into a possibility of thinking/feeling where we exist and we don’t at the same time. These emails not only suggest a counter epistemology but also the possibility of an (un)productive anthropology, one which happens within each of us around nightness - away from the day, or rather, away from the neoliberal expectation of the day.